Took a break from men.

Told their hands of desire. They needed my permission .

But my hands were no different. Reaching for old habits. Pill bottles and shot glasses.

My body was collateral damage. Physical proof of my depression… I understood you are what you eat. But no one said

You are what you think.

I sat down. And talked to my body. And she told me I was being selfish.

She said.

I need you to accept me. As is

Flaws and faults.

Where softness, sits on top of my firmness.

And dimples are craved into my roundness.

I need you to be consistent

You binge drink. Binge eat, and binge think yourself…. into the person you don’t want to be…

I need you to breath.

I need water, mediation , greens.

I need you to start loving me.

You been slow dancing with demons, waking up with strangers,

Plagued by an impatience, looking elsewhere for validation.

I am your temple.

And look at how you treat you.

Look at your own self abuses

You work against your mind. As if you don’t need it

I need you to love me whole

Mind

Body and

Spirit

I took my body and my health for granted…

so today I look at my reflection.

I asked my body my body what she needed.

I sat down. And she said

I need water.

I need exfoliation

I need mediation

I need green.

I need you to stop slow dancing with demon, and waking up with strangers.

I need yoga. A different type movement,

I need you to accept me. As is

Flaws and faults.

Where softness, sits on top of my firmness.

And dimples are craved into my roundness.

I need you to be consistent

You beings drink. Being eat, beings think yourself…. into the person you don’t want to be…

Crying… from the shit you avoided last week.

My body starving…. for exfoliatation… oil, for water, personal hygiene…

I’ve avoided my bod

, huh, for love. The type my ear have heard of but my body never touched.

Body never felt love.

Slow facing with demons. Waking up with strangers. My body to familiar with people that linger, it

I need you to breath.

Your been cut, drug burned , and bruised …. from the outside in.

Looks like you need to hug yourself

Trust yourself and love yourself.

I love you… but you need to start loving me.

You been taking your pain out on me.

I am a temple.

Plagued by an impatience

I am your temple.

And look at how you treat you.

Look at your own self abuses

You work against your mind. As if you don’t need it

I need you to love me whole

Mind

Body and

Spirit

But you treat me so poorly.